September 12, 2020 – I started off my day going for a short walk at the lake. I only take one dog with me each day because I cannot handle more than that right now. I lose my balance easily, so I have a walking stick I use to keep me upright. Today was Diane’s turn to go. She enjoyed walking at the lake. She shocked me when she got in the water because she usually avoids it. She did not swim, she just walked down the edge of the lake. I will share some photos from today as I write.
When I first started blogging about Covid-19, I was not sure if it was a good idea. I do not want a blog that sounds like I am constantly complaining. I now realize it was a good idea because when someone asks me about my symptoms, I can refer them to this blog because I do not remember. I prefer to try to look at the bright side of things. When I am going through trials in life, I always find myself looking for the lessons that I am supposed to learn. I believe with each trial God is trying to teach me something. I was in a severe car accident 17 years ago and I dealt with brain/memory issues. My brain got better as far as being able to learn. I graduated with my master’s degree a couple of years ago. But my brain never went back to normal as far as my memory was concerned. I also had other physical issues that I had to learn to accept as my new normal.
I feel like I am going through that all over again in some ways. I have problems with short-term memory and my brain is not functioning at top capacity. Along with that I am having a lot of joint pain, headaches, dizziness, loss of taste and smell, sinuses, and I still cannot make it through the day without taking a nap for a few hours. I asked God if there was a lesson that I did not learn from my first brain injury because if so, I am ready to learn it. Call me crazy but I think if I keep going through similar trials then there is something I did not learn the first time that God is trying to teach me.
I lived with a walker and on crutches for 3 years after my car accident because I was in and out of surgeries on my leg. I can live without walking if I must. But living without my brain function is difficult. Not being able to speak normally is difficult for me especially when my job consists of talking on the phone for 10-hour shifts. Not being able to think quickly is frustrating. I will open my laptop and look at the screen for 5 minutes before I remember why I opened it up in the first place. I have not even been doing my Cookin’ with Bobbi Jo videos because I cannot talk for long periods of time without everything sounding messed up. I am thankful that my husband is willing to do these videos for me. He has done a great job and I believe everyone is enjoying watching him in the kitchen. Either that or they are just surprised to see him on a cooking video. Or maybe some are watching because they know him and are curious to hear what sarcastic remark is going to come out of his mouth next. Either way I have enjoyed teaching him some kitchen skills and I appreciate him keeping my cooking channel going while I cannot.
I feel like I am completely better as far as my lungs and oxygen levels. I do not feel like I am getting better as far as everything else. My PCP is convinced this is all part of Covid-19 since he is treating others with the same symptoms. He says all I can do is listen to my body. I have so much I want to do and so little energy to accomplish it all. I will continue taking it a day at a time. I know God has this and I hope the lesson I need to learn is revealed soon. If anyone needs me to pray for them, please leave a comment below. Have a great night!